I Have Decided – Proverbs 20

Today’s post comes from Michelle Carillet, Nursery – PreK director at C3. 


Today’s Reading: Proverbs 20

Today’s Key Reading: Proverbs 20:24 “The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?”

Eight years ago, I found myself in a physical situation that restricted most of my activity. I would spend a lot of my day laying outside on a blanket just trying to manage severe back pain. My doctor told me I really needed to start walking to loosen up the areas where pinched nerves had set in. So day in and day out I would lay for a while then walk a very small circle around my yard and then start the process over. In the midst of this trial I spent a lot of time in prayer. At first it was mostly me talking and crying, and talking and crying some more. I was frustrated! It had been 6 weeks of pain, fear and very little progress. I could not understand why God did not just heal me.

Then one day I stopped talking. I started noticing the little things around me. The two birds that always played chase in the same tree. The ants as they scurried back and forth, collecting crumbs and building up their mounds. I just got quiet! Then God began to speak to my heart, He said, “Michelle, the time is coming when I am going to ask you to leave the things you know and step out into the unknown.” I had spent my whole life serving alongside of my dad who was a pastor. I was his right hand and loved every minute of it. But I knew that God was telling me He was going to ask me to leave that role.

It didn’t happen right away. Five years passed before we knew God was saying it was time to go. In that time I watched as God unfolded the most beautiful story. I saw God raise my baby sister up to take my place. I watched as God molded and shaped my husband for the next phase of his ministry. And then only as God can, He began to place people around me like a hedge to walk me through the difficult transition.

Today we are so thankful to be a part of the C3 family. To have leaders who inspire us to go deeper and friends to help you go farther. Most of all, we are thankful for a God who faithfully leads us step by step. If you find yourself on a journey and you don’t understand the path you are on, I encourage you to ask God for wisdom and then to rest. Rest knowing that He directs your steps.


Prayer focus: God, I thank you so much that I am never alone. You are always with me. Please direct my steps and make my path straight. Help me not to get caught up in the “whys” but to trust in you. Amen.